I had a routine and now it's broken
I want to stop before my losses overtake my wins
I tried to do what everyone wanted
How did things get to be this way?
I never wanted this
I wanted to be myself, happy
I never found that endless open door
My dreams have become dark with never any light
All my thoughts point to one thing these days
I'm scared that I could go through with this
Everyone has their day
Is mine today, tomorrow, when?
I came across this poem while I was going through paperwork and purging old documents and materials. I wrote this poem during my high school days. Those were some sad and lonely days in my past. Below is one more poem I wrote during this time entitled "Will You..."
Have I made an impact
Have I been a good friend
Have I keep my promises
Will you remember me when I'm gone
Did I live up to the expectations
Did people care
Did I do the "right" things
Will you remember me when I'm gone
Could I have done more
Could I of lived for myself
Could I of made my dreams come true
Will you remember me when I'm gone
Was I there when you needed me
Was I ever loved
Was I good enough to be remembered
Will you remember me when I'm gone
Why did I do some of the things I did
Why didn't I open up to more people
Why was I always so sad
Will you remember me when I'm gone
Would I of succeeded
Would I of ever trusted anyone
Would people of gone on a limb for me
Will you...Please remember
