I had so much built up stress and anxiety lately and tonight it was no better. I was alone for the night, no dogs or people. I sat down and watched a movie while having a glass wine which lead to a bottle of wine. I was a wreck! I got mad at myself, I cried my eyes out, and I resorted to my best stress reliever. Cutting. First small, shallow cuts and then the final ones being deep. The blood flowing beautifully and all my stress being released.
It was perfect. No need to impress or be ashamed. No one around for them to look down on me. And no one called me tonight. No friends. No one who really cares. And now the calming after the storm.
I feel peaceful and ready for bed.
Good night to all.
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