And so it starts

I'm starting to blog, hopefully, daily as a somewhat diary that is open to the public. No one may read this but there is a slim chance someone will and they will get to learn about me, the real me. The things I keep secret from my friends and family, all the stories and lies I have told people throughout my life, my daily struggles, etc... Most people think of me as this happy, go lucky person but it's not me, far from it. And every time I open up it goes terribly wrong. So I'm going to try something different this time, I'm going to write it to the world for anyone's eyes. Read it or don't, comment or don't comment...I don't care. This blog is about me confessing my faults and struggles, learning & applying God's Word in my life, and getting back on the path that God has for me. This may be a month process or a year process, I don't know. What I do know is, my life needs to start being about what will please God, not my family, friends, work, or myself.

Some background...

I'm 29 years old and still feel like a girl who hasn't grown-up. Most of my friends are either married with children, living promiscuous lives, etc... Me on the other hand, am still playing tons of soccer, never date, hardly go out, and when I do it's always jeans and a t-shirt, never dress up, etc. On the other hand, I own my own place, I have a couple of cars, a couple of dogs, a masters degree in accounting, and work at one of the top CPA firms in the country. In the past eight months or so I have been attending church services and reading His Word. Engrossing myself in the church has helped to break away from some of my bad habits I have formed in the past ten years. I want more of the non material things in life. Possessions can only buy a person so much happiness. What I want can be found in the lyrics from "Knowing You":

Now my heart's desire is to know you more
To be found in you, and known as yours
To possess by faith what I could not earn
All surpassing gift of righteousness

And the journey begins....